i'm sorry, wont happen again

Its anger
She had to get the deptherA
Now i have to wait for four years
Four years wasted
Lastnight, i bite her
I wanted her so badly
she asked for her glass of wine
I spilt it and gave her a slap
i bit her cheek in anger
it felt good
I felt like trash,
i apologised
But today i punched her face again
I feel .......................
empty, looking for attention
why cant i have it like the jones